Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Need a change

I have doing some soul searching and I really need a change. A fresh start. I need time to myself. Between School, taking care of Bentley and trying to keep up the house I'm mentally and physically exhausted. I want to pamper myself and feel pretty and confident. And having no money for anything even bills is really stressing me out. All I wanna do is sleep and eat. I'm putting on weight again and my face is staying broke out and no acne medicine is working. My depression medicine isn't helping my anxiety and it hasn't helped me with my energy. I'm not sure how I get through the days as sluggish as I feel. I need to change my eating and stop drinking pop, drink water. Stay on a schedule with my medicine and don't forget it. I need to organize my time better. After finally breaking Bentley of his bottle and starting him in his big boy spiderman bed, I feel overwhelmed knowing that we have to tackle potty training next:( being a mommy the work really never ends and the same can be said for a college student. And I need a job but I can't find one that pays and work around my school schedule and Bentley's head start schedule.

An overwhelmed, struggling mommy and college student.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

TAG Get to know me


1. Are you named after anyone?

I have the same middle name as my mom, Renae, only I spell mine differently (it was misspelled on my birth certificate soo). As for my first name my dad picked it out, not sure why, he always told me I was named after a can of beer and a set of dice :/ (Candice)

2. When was the last time you cried?


3. Do you have kids?

Yes, one son Bentley who will be 2 next month!

4. If you were another person, would you be a friend of yourself?

Duh. I'm awesome. But no really I would.

5. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Its like a second language

6. Will you ever Bungee Jump?

No. I'm afraid of heights and I could never do anything that crazy!

7. What's your favorite cereal?

Count chocula!

8. What's the first thing you notice about people?

Obviously their look

9. What is your eye colour?

Brown

10. Scary movie or happy endings?

Both! I do love scary movie especially this time of year

11. Favorite smells?

Holister SoCal cologne and Abercrombie & Fitch Fierce. Tanning lotion, like coconuts! The salt water of the beach. Fresh clean clothes, rainstorms in the summer..

12. Summer or winter?

Haha Niether, I hate being hot and I hate being cold. I like Fall.

13. Computer or television?

Television. I'm always on my phone anyway

14. What's the furthest you've ever been from home?

Canada

15. Do you have any special talents?

Nope  

16. Where were you born?

Jacksonville, FL on June 15, 1988

17. What are your hobbies?

Watching tv, reading, eating, sleeping, playing with my son 

18. Do you have any pets?

I have two cats, kitty or Tomcat, and boots

19. Favorite movie?

Hmmm. Love Actually, Blow, or Hocus Pocus

20. Do you have any siblings?

One sister and one brother. My sister is 22, my brother is 17.

Friday, August 31, 2012

The Downfall of us All

Bentley's dad and I broke up this past weekend. The first two days were all fighting. I wanted to break up because all we did is fight and he felt the same way. What really got me was that he had been texting this girl that he cheated on me with for a month and then the day we broke up he stayed the night with her and slept with her. The next day he moved in with her. So I did not want him to take Bentley or have him around that girl. We can get along about everything else just not that, he doesnt see it as a big deal, but to me it is. I'm just lost.